Yesterday we celebrated the first birthday of our third, and very likely last, child. It was a bittersweet occasion, but I tried to soak in every moment… its what I’ve been doing this whole last year. I did my very best to find joy in all the moments or phases as the year passed in the blink of an eye. The exhaustion that comes with 4 am feedings for 11 months (I was spoiled by my other two kids, who both slept through the night by 8 weeks… don’t hate, I got mine!). That intoxicating smell of a new baby – seriously why haven’t they bottled that yet? The massive amounts of laundry a family of 5 can produce. The sweet smile that debuts just as you start to feel totally defeated, like they know you need a little something in return. Dragging out all the baby gear that we had been finished with for years. That first, and oh so infectious, laugh (my answer to James Lipton’s Inside the Actor’s Studio “What sound or noise do you love?” Absolutely a child’s laugh. The. Best.)! The first tooth… and all the fun that comes with teething. The amazement that comes as a little person learns to navigate their world by rolling, sitting up, crawling, cruising and walking! Not all of the moments were joyous, but they were all moments that I will treasure as she grows… for all of her firsts, may be my lasts.
So I hold her a little tighter and a little longer, because I know how fast the years go. And I quelch my baby fever by focusing on my new baby, this blog… Happy Birthday kate & smalls!!